So, i decided to try writing in english. My English is very poor and without google, im not sure how i passed my exams.
What im trying to say is that im sorry if i have some mistakes. I hope i'll get better. Maybe, i hope so, one day i will laught on (at?) this post and my mistaks.
Its friday night and i am home alone, again( except of my mom). I had plans for tonight, but unfortunatly my plans canceled. From that point, my mood statrted go down. I feel lonly and i have some prettey bad thoughts. I know why it happens.
My pills ran out(gone? i took them all? ) and i cant find some time to go get new prescription . I think its the second week without them.(Sorry to my friends.....)
So bad thoughts.
I tried to change it. Some of my friends invited me to a party but i didnt have anouth time to get ready (they gave me like, 20 minutes, and i was total mess and pretty stinky. tmi?)
Then, i texted to a friend, hoping he will meet me, but he already got some plans. I tryied another one but he didnt want to invite me( i invited myself to meet his friends but he felt its too wierd for him, and i didnt like the feeling that i am not wanted). Although, if i did met him it could escalted very quiqly for us. There are things that people do only at midnight, ones a year, and even then its too much.
Then, i decided to study. But i really dont want to.(alothogh i should.) So i dont.
Eventually. i painted my nails, had some tough talk on the phone, watched netflix and hope that tomorrow will be better.
Maybe i'll go to the doctor tomorrow....
Till next time,
bye bye
